stolen treasures

I saw her at Reunions, it sparked a line that stuck in my head. Two days of professional development - sitting in a chair all day, bored shitless - was exactly what I needed to give it birth. Also, hella shorter - mad editing has been going on.

In the beginning
God said
let there be light
I believe in evolution
but you had me seeing God
believing in the wonder of creation
I saw proof in your smile
you were sunshine
feeding me energy
to wrap the world in flowers
love blooming in stop-action photography
you were oxygen
fueling our growth as we built lush worlds
fueling solar flare fires
burning my skin pure in your presence
cleaning cleansing
constructing starshine universes
in every moment we spent together
our kisses shone champagne supernova
the Big Bang sparking
in every molecule where our lips touched
we had heaven in our footsteps
lightning in our fingertips
we never shocked each other
– just the world
with everything we made together
the life the love the light
we brought, we made
we built stars
playing at being God, we put lightbulbs in the sky
they could burn for a million years
and scarcely scratch the surface of our fuel
and every time we kissed a star was born and flew
so an hour in your arms built universes anew
maybe that's why our sex was the way it was
holding each other close, matching breathing because
grinding sliding screaming laughing
left us lying intimate, clutching gasping
we would lie twisting to unite our light
and with our shine kill the night
so what the uneducated would call a passionate screw
was me grinding to find the light deep inside you
now, turning each other out wasn't all we were about
I just have to use sex to explain, because
that's the only way you can understand the way it was
the bliss, magnetism, Bonnie and Clyde
you feel after hours of animal sex
--twenty-six consecutive orgasms
is the feeling we had
every time we saw each other
every time I saw her eyes
every time I heard her laugh
and then I slipped.

I had one little thought
one blasphemous idea
you disappeared, guaranteed to return
asked me, “wait”
all I could think was
could I build worlds
could I create stars
with other girls?
I wanted to keep shining light into the world
I had lost faith that you were the truth
maybe I could burn heaven with other people
--I should've seen that you wouldn't stand
for me keeping false idols before you.
Now I can't sleep
I lie drowning in barren worlds
choking on nothing in empty riverbeds
except once a year
when the sun shines soft again on my skin
and the breeze touches my lips
you're the reason
it's always sunny in Philadelphia
but every single moment I spend in your presence
is a stolen treasure, and I can count those seconds

Hell is an existence apart from God
you can see Her, just out of reach
you burn frozen, knowing what you're missing
with your hand in mine, I used to play God
now we don't even speak
my hand has a full dance card, but
I only go to church to steal the wafers
I pity people who chase rainbows
pots of gold are nothing
I used to ride the dawn
to plant diamonds and platinum in the sky
I go camping
so I can lie back
and count the memories
I don't need a map
to find our golden stolen pirate treasures
-- they’re the reason you can see at night